JameS

 

 

 

 

 

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I choose to be strong and
aware in this life,
I choose to create mirth and laugh
when the occasion calls,
I choose to meet my
Personal Legend with an
unwaivering heart ~

Yet, you walk by, and shake
the very core of my foundation,
I am aware of your every move,
I am drawn to your spirit force ~

Against you... I have no defence

Annonymous,

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As I stand here beneath the
calm swaying trees and the
beautiful blue sky,
I'll wait for the soft silent
breeze, to come and fill my
soul with bold hope and
strength to live today with all
my heart,
May others feel, your warm
soft touch ~ ::

Annonymous,

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I'll fight all my soul,
I'll fight with a steady heart
and silently draw out my power,
I'll use my mind to learn
and observe my opponent,
Come my friend, it is time
to FIGHT !

Annonymous,

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In idle moments ~ my
memories drift to you like a
leaf travelling on a soft
summer breeze. My heart
beats a soft rythem like a
gentle drum.

I search for the rythem that
plays in your heart. I am silently,
drawn to you ~

Annonymous

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So your back,
the story I created to bring,
out the sorrow so that I,
may feel it a new.
My wings are heavy with
pain and my heart storms
a roars a tormentious rain ~

This rain of loneliness,
I know it well, it brings a
deep unforgiving
sadness,

I'll stand up alone to this fear,
with all my heart and tears,

I'll call your name and hope,
that you come to help lift
me up ~

All I need is for you to be
there, so that I won't be alone,
~ come quick my friend.
Come quick!

Annonymous

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My resolve,
I believe in me,
I believe in my heart,
I believe in my power,

Annonymous,

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If you were a shooting star,
sailing through the heavens
burning brightly and beautifully,
would you share your light me?

Annonymous,

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As I lay here beneath the
glittering night sky filled with
the flickering lights of hope,

I dream of wings to fly,
through the heavens
I will soar, Let the stars
guide my flght to you.

This journey I do not know,
I only ask for it to be true.
I am silently drawn to you.

Annonymous,

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I want to catch this ray of sunlight,
I'll use it to rise from the depths of
my pain,

I'll slay my fears and climp my
mountains. Yeh I've let it go,

I've realized it is time to go.
On to new dreams here I
come! I want to show you
stars from horizon to
horizon ~ :: Let's go.

Annonymous,

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Your eyes, they still have
the beautiful light that
searches for hope ~

Bleach E73-74

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With inspiration from talking to you,
I choose to be present and what a
brilliant day it is ~ today

Thank you K

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Lets raise our voices
through the tough times,
you must not give up,
let's look towards our own
ambitions, there's no need
to fear, don't get lost in life !!

My Pace, Bleach

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Where troubles melt like
lemon drops, thats where
you'll find me

Meet Joe Black

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Even if you made enemies,
with everyone but yourself,
I'll be there to protect you !

Bleach,

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Do you see the bright blue
sky today?,

Oh it is so inviting with it's big
white clouds! Let's go, Let's go now
and fly.

Let's go somehwere new and let our
hearts dance and explore!

Until then, I'll dream, I will see you
there baby~

Annonymous"

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I'll close my eyes and call the,
wind to carry me. I'll gather
up the clouds that dispare,
and turn them into white
clouds of hope.

These clouds will carry me
swift and true
so that I may be close to you ~
Will you be there?

Annonymous,

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I am silently drawn to you.
I have no explanation nor
do I wish to have one. I wish
to keep you a mystery, whilst
i search for the clues to solve ~::

Annonymous,

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If something is precious to
you, stand for it. No matter
how bad, how sad or impossible.
You must try, try and try.

- Naruto

 

Thank you everyone for helping me have a great summer!!!

คิดถึงทุกๆคนมากๆ !!!! yeah!!! miss hansoooooo!!!

 

Don't forget to check out the pictures doai na krub ! ! !

 

To a special girl ~ แป้ง

 

คอบคุนน่ะที่ช่วยให้นิกรย่อมลับใด้หลายย่าง  hehe ~

พูดง่ายๆ...ดิดถึงโว่ย !!!!

 

 

Today ~  I entered the annual taekwondo tournament called Captain's Cup XV, which was held at the University of the District of Coloumbia (U.D.C.). This was a local D.C. tournament meaning it wasn't a very big tournament. Haha... man. Me and my team mates got to the tournament at around 10 am. We went there to pre-register and compete in the forms competition, which is "poomse". Poomse's a sequence of blocks and kicks that represent belt levels. hah I did Koyro.. which turned pretty actually, but since they combined all the black belts together.. to do the poomses, i ended up like 2nd to last!!.. yeah i know not a good start to the day uh?! The poomse's were not my main concern of the day. I was looking forward to the sparring!! 

  After about 5 hours  of.. doing.. well nothing. Wait wait... okay me and the guyz pretty much checked all the cute girls in the tournament. I mean .. what else is a guy supposed to do? sadly none of us got any phone numbers  T_T. okok back to the taekwondo. During the 5 hours the lil kids were fighting and... the lil kids in their uniform and protection gear looked.. sooo cute. I swear i wanted to take one home. hahaha. so after the lil kids had a go at each other, the big boys got a turn. This is when things started getting heavy. Thing started to get rough coz ... generally the bigger guyz play rough. Again there were some awsome matches with high flyin action.

Finally after waiting the whole day.. at around 5 pm I got my turn to fight. I had butterflies in my stomach.. was very cool haha. My opponent.. was a little shorted than me.. but weighed about 5 more kilos. So i was feelin confident. I ran up the mat.. with my helmet on any everything. I focused on the guy.. and the world around me slowly.. blurred. The reff gave the green light to fight. I started the attack. I went for 2 heads shots. 1 high round kick (bandal chiki) and 1 spinhook kick (monroe)... I missed both.. haha but as i was doing the spink hook kick (monroe).. for a split second my side was exposed ... meaning my ribs. My opponent took full advantage and kicked me in the side really really hard. It felt like lighting had struck my side. I got the wind knocked out of me.. I cudn't breath.. n i dont know why.. coz im usually okay at takin hits like taht.. anyways the reff starts doing a k.o. count.. i want to get up but i can't... so people come to help and get my gear off .. and i can breath again.. yay!! .. so i get myself together and get ready to fight. However the reff and completed the k.o. count. I lost. This all happaned in a time frame of less than 8 seconds. I wasn't sad taht I lost coz it was my dumbass fault. However i was pissed coz I didnt get a chance to fight!!! ggrr.. I turns out my opponent was a 26yr old 3rd or 4th dan master with his own gym. Dammit i didn;t even get to break a flippin sweat!!!

I'm takin this as a very very very good lesson. haha. I know i have to work 10 x as harder n thats cool. I messed up and thats cool too. Next time i'm winning. When? How? Why?.. i dont know.. but i do know that

Sooo.... I have been busy busy busy with all my school work from uni. I gotta admit, it has taken its toll... sigh. I trip up once and fall down and look up and see how much I have to do and big the world is.. and I can do is... tremble and create fear. That sux, so I'm gonna give that up.. and that anxiety n fear crap. Doin this I realized.. all I had to do is get up, dust myself off and keep on goin, keep on kickin ass. So now.. when I fall down.. I enjoy the change in scenery for that brief moment and smile_________oO

I wish I could write everything down... and share all of my thoughts and feelings.... but since I got a math test in like 12 hours im gonna write whats on my mind now.

I have become addicted to Naruto (the japanese manga). I gotta say Naruto is fucking awsome. If you get the change read it!! www.narutocentral.com will get you hooked up. Beware, coz you might get addicted! Anyways I was reading one chapter.. and it one of the characters says "If it is precious to you. You protect it, no matter how sad, how bad, or how tough... Even if you die, you die protecting it with your two arms. You're will strength and will, will live on forever and mark you place as a man"... or something like that. Anyways I was inspired to be strong in what i am doing... and the goals i am undertaking... i create the possibility for myself ... the possibility to NEVER GIVE UP ON MYSELF!! boo yah

aite man.. juz a lil more to go n i am goin hoooooooooommmmmmmwaimeeeee can't wait to see of ya guyz.... man Harry i fuckin miss you man.. when i see you, im gonna kick your ass. Yup thats all much I miss you. hahaha Gerry im gonna give you a good ass whoppin too.. im comin home guyz.

Mae Mae n Bell, hang in there guyz... i hope you're still doin ur thang .. and bein happy haha.

alright.. im gonna go study my ass off!! coz dammit I now appreciate ma education.

I'm gonna make you guyz proud, just you watch. Master Dupz and Morka... respect to you.

.man its late.. yak gin guit teow.. a.. hungry jang.

okokay im goin. bubye!!